Aug 6, 2012

Then it hit me

With only 8 weeks and 5 days until my due date, this baby thing is slowly starting to sink in. This morning I was laying in bed checking my phone while Hardy was getting ready for work and it hit me....
 
Soon we're going to have a little baby in our house. 
A living, breathing, human being. 
A baby who will need our care and attention at all times.
A baby who will wake at all ours overnight to let us know she needs something.
 
Our baby...
 
That's crazy to say!  I know she's in my tummy, her movements are getting stronger every day, but to actually picture us having a little girl in our arms to hold in just two months is surreal to say the least.  I'm still going through my "what if" moments (as I've posted before).  What if I don't hear her wake up at night?  What if I can't breastfeed?  What if she's not getting enough to eat?  What if we're not on a good schedule when I return to work?  What if we won't know what kind of cry she's having?  What if, WHAT IF, What if....
 
I told Hardy yesterday, I want to focus on the two of us spending as much time together that we possibly can.  Because after Persephone gets here, we'll be a family of three...not just two.  Is that selfish of me?  Not that I don't enjoy time with friends and family, but I want to cherish every last second we'll have with one another since it will never be the same.  Once Persephone is here, we'll have new memories to make :)
 
I'm still in search for daycare...whether an in-home or an actual business - so if you have any recommendations in the Flowery Branch/Oakwood area, please let me know!!  I would love to stay at home with this little girl forever, but it's just not possible ::Cries::
 

3 comments:

  1. What you are feeling is completely normal! I felt the ecaxt same way. Like I told you in the car, you are just going to know what to do. You will not know what I'm talking about unti she is here. You and Hardy should be spending as much time togethr as you can. Now Michael and I prefer to go out alone when we get time without the kids. We love seeing friends, but we love getting to spend time just the two of us. You are going to do great when she gets here!

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  2. You will be FINE!! Trust me, you WILL hear her cry out in the middle of the night, if you can't breastfeed- you just figure it out! The schedule will work out, your instincts kick in and it will ALL WORK OUT! Don't stress, don't stress!
    PLEASE take the time to just the two of you, that's not selfish it's a GOOD IDEA!

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  3. Thanks for the pep talk ladies :)

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