Apr 1, 2011

MMMbop

MMMbop
♫ You have so many relationships in this life, only one or two will last.  You go through all the pain and strife then you turn your back and they're gone so fast ♫
 
When I think back to all the friends and/or acquaintances I've made over the years, it's unbelievable to think about how long you know people.  What kind of imprint they can leave on your soul.  You learn things from them, grow from them...or sometimes back track.  But I do believe we meet people for a reason, big or small, happy or sad.  The following are some people I've felt a connection with that I thought I'd mention.
 
Danielle - We met in 7th grade at Richards Middle School, our mutual love for Hanson brought us together.  We formed one of the most memorable friendships I've ever had (yes, even between our bickering, debates, tears, laughs and heartache).  You are three days older than me.  I've always thought it was neat that Kurt Cobain died on your birthday but wasn't found until mine.  It is a morbid thought I guess, but still something that reminds me of you.  Although we've drifted apart over the last several years, I always think about her and I smile.  The smallest thing can happen during my day and it will bring back a memory.  She recently moved to Oregon with her husband Josh and although I wasn't able to see them off,  I hope one day we will see one another again face to face.  She will forever hold a special place in my heart.  I miss you!
 
Tabitha - Oh Tabby Cat, Terabithia, BFFLADYFI.  We met at work - yay for lawn care!  Your are the best friend I have had in recent years.  I can confide in you in anything and I'm not afraid to be myself in front of you.  You love me for who I am even when I say some off the wall things.  I value and cherish your friendship so very much.  I Really wished we hung out more....besides our office, ya know?!  It's hard to imagine two people can connect through work, but we did and I wouldn't change it for anything.  We've shared many LOL's, some to the point of tears, we saw Blink 182 together, we've broke it down on the dance floor during the Christmas party.  You can always make my hair look good in less than 5 minutes and you support me whenever I need a friend.  I love you and your sweet face BFFLADYFI!!
 
Stacy - We met at South Effingham High School (oh yes, there is a county called Effingham IN GEORGIA no less!!), I had just moved there in the middle of my Junior year and didn't have any friends but you accepted me for me.  I loved loved loved having Agriculture and Early Childhood classes with you, you always knew how to make me laugh.  You have always been a beautiful beautiful person and I hope you never forget that.  From gauging our ears, to seeing who could go the longest without washing their hair...getting the sweet tea at lunch that was "only" for teachers..,.and most recently, doing an AMAZING job with my make-up for my wedding.  Although time and distance has kept us apart, you have and always will be on my mind.  I love and miss you!!
 
Becca - You were officially my first "online" friend - an AOL friend at that.  We met in a Hanson chartroom ha ha ha.  We quickly developed a friendship and became not only online pals but pen pals.  I remember getting your letters in the mail, they always came in cute little envelopes with scenery painted on them.  We officially met face-to-face in 2002 when I flew to Orlando to visit you and see Hardy at college.  I remember the car accident leaving the airport...uhhh guess stupid driver's aren't just in Georgia.  We had an awesome weekend going to Universal Studios/Islands of Adventure and I appreciate you keeping an eye out on my man while I wasn't there ;)  We have since remained friends over the years and I'm still so happy to have met you.
 
Lindsay - You my dear sweet friend are so special to me.  I feel like I've known you all my life, we share a connection that some people just wouldn't understand.  I've been through the laughs and tears with you, I've listened, I've given advice and I just down right think you're an amazing person.  You have gotten married and had two beautiful babies since we first talked.  I couldn't believe it when you and Zach actually showed up at our house in August 2010 - - it was cute that both your friends and mine we worried we were literally going to kill one another.  It was the best three days I have had in a loooooooooooooooong time.  I am so glad we all hit it off so well (but I knew we would).  I promise, one day, Hardy and I will make a trip to PA to visit!!  I have to meet Austin and Shayla :)

Mar 31, 2011

Happy Anniversary (sorta)

11 years ago today I went to a concert with Dannielle Mclane, Matt Rampey and Ashley Davis. It was at this concert that I set my eyes on my now handsome husband, Hardy, my prince charming, my soulmate, the love of my life...

Happy Anniversary Hardy :). I love you!!

And an interesting thing happened today - he got a bonus from work. Do y'all know what that means??!? Disney World HERE WE COME!!!

Mar 28, 2011

Rain Rain Rain

This weekend was pretty drab.  Hardy I went out to eat Friday to Olive Garden (yum), then headed over to Movie Stop to trade in a few movie's and pre-order True Blood Season 3.  Saturday we finally got out of bed at a staggering 10:30am.  We usually never sleep in that late but we did, I think it was because of the rain.  We got up, ate lunch and then spent the rest of the afternoon/early evening entertaining some unexpected guests.  What we thought was going to be a cuddle day, watching movies while it rained we ended up having company. Not that I'm complaining, it wasn't a huge inconvenience but sometimes...I just want a weekend to myself. 
 
I ended up getting a migraine before we headed to bed Saturday.  I was laying in bed at like 10:40 and started hearing this loud popping noise on our roof...Hardy was in the shower at the time so of course I couldn't pull the usual wife line "What was that?  Did you hear it?".  I ran downstairs and opened the front door, we were getting pummeled with hail, the biggest hail I'd ever seen in person.  I was so worried about my car because for once in a long time, I had parked in the driveway this weekend.  Hardy tried to investigate but it was hard to see it because it was still raining really heavily and was dark.  I picked up a few pieces of hail from our flower bed - - they were about the size of cherry/grape tomato's and were actually pretty heavy.

Unfortunately, my migraine spent the night with me and was still with me in the morning.  We checked on my car, found about 4 dents on the roof but nothing worth reporting to my insurance.  I sucked it up and we went to church, took one of my pills and crossed my fingers it wouldn't come back.  We did some grocery shopping at Publix, got lunch at Shane's (which by the way - - @ Flowery Branch they offer 10% off if you show your church bulletin) and went home.  We watched a few episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, yes....we have the entire series on DVD, I napped and then we had dinner and went to bed.
 
Now is the beginning of another work week.  Spring has certainly sprung because the phone's here are crazy - by the way Rachael - - we got your payment :)
 
I'll be working 4 Saturday's between now and Memorial Day weekend to try and make up my vacation time that I had to use in January thanks to the big snow of 2011.  Ah well, at least I get to make the time up.

Mar 24, 2011

Tic Toc...Tic Toc

That's the sound of my clock ticking.  What clock you ask?  The biological one.  For the longest time I never understood what people mean't when they said their clock was ticking, but now I do.  I'm about to be 26 and my alarm is going off.  Is this something we're naturally given?  I feel like my loins are actually speaking to me, it's so strange.  No I don't have butterflies in my stomach, I have them in my ovaries and uterus.  At first I just thought I was "in the mood" but this is different....it's not passing.  I went to bed feeling like this and I woke up feeling like this....I'm at work, feeling like this.
 
Sure, I've had baby fever a few times but it was only when I was near new babies.  However, it quickly passed as soon as I was no longer in the presence of the baby.  Now..out of nowhere, in the middle of the day - BLAM.  It's like I'm overwhelmed with a feeling of wanting to conceive.  I don't know what to think of it, of course I want a baby, not necessarily right this second but do you ever really know? 
 
Although, I have only been married (almost) 1 year, Hardy and I have been together for 11yrs, so it's not like we don't know one another by now.  I definitely want to be with him for the rest of my life and I would love for him to be a father.  BUT BUT BUT, he says he's not ready for a kid and the thought of having one is a big turn off.  I'm not exactly sure what's given him such a bad taste in his mouth, I know they're a handful and it changes your life forever, but how could creating a new life be such a turn off?  I don't want to pressure him, yet I feel like if we never try - I am being robbed of my opportunity to be a mother.  It's amazing...this great gift that we as woman were granted.  So...I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.  My body is saying reproduce and my husband is saying not anytime soon.  I understand I'm still young but I don't want to be a 40yr old mother to a 5yr old - - you catch my drift here?
 
So a big THANKS to all you ladies out there who are pregnant, trying to get pregnant or just popped a baby out....I think reading all these blogs has gotten my clock in a tizzy and I cannot locate the snooze button

Mar 18, 2011

Spasmodic torticollis ~aka~ cervical dystonia

What is it?
 
Spasmodic torticollis is a chronic neurological movement disorder causing the neck to involuntarily turn to the left, right, upwards and/or downwards.  Causes of the disorder are mostly idiopathic (spontaneous), although a small number of patients develop the disorder as a result of another disease.  Most patients first experience symptoms mid-life.  The most common treatment for spasmodic torticollis is the use of botox injections.
 
Why am I blogging about this?
 
My Dad was diagnosed with cervical dystonia almost 2yrs ago (at the young age of 51).  He had been a healthy man all of his life up until then.  He started noticing at work his head would involuntarily move to the left.  No matter how hard he tried to look straight forward, it would still pull to the left.  After co-workers started noticing and commenting on it (making fun of him), he went to the doctor.  It took a while but the doctor finally diagnosed him. 
 
Initially they tried a muscle relaxer and some neck exercises to try and loosen up the nerves in his neck to no avail.  Sleeping was uncomfortable and driving even became impossible.  Obviously the doctor couldn't approve work duty with this condition since there seemed to be no safe way my Dad could get to work.  The doctor eventually suggested they start doing Botox injections in his neck to see if it helped.  My Dad has continued with the injections every 12-14 weeks.  He generally gets 6-8 injections in his neck per visit.  There's definitely a big difference between when he has had a recent injection and when he hasn't. 
 
After being on short-term disability from work for so long, they finally laid him off :(  after 20yrs of service.  After this, his long-term disability kicked in and was going great until September 2010 - an Aetna team had contacted my Dad's doctor to do a patient review...apparently the doctor wasn't exactly stern when describing my Dad's condition and after the conversation ended, Aetna decided my Dad COULD work.  Of course my Dad was livid, how can the doctor tell him he can't go back to work but not keep the same story when the insurance company calls to investigate things?!?!  Since September 2010, my Dad has been without any income what-so-ever, he's been going back and forth with Aetna and his doctor's office to try and get some resolution.  Ever since then, he's been down to just the change in his pocket, avoiding creditors and trying to explain to Bank of America that he wasn't purposely delinquent on his mortgage and trying NOT to go insane. 
 
Finally after 6.5mos of arguing Aetna called him yesterday to let him know they've reinstated his service and will immediately be sending him a retroactive check to pay for the months of disability he has missed.  This deserves a CELEBRATION!!!  I am sooooo happy for him, he was only 30 days shy from losing his house and then this GREAT news is given to him.  Praise the LORD!!!!!
 
This is just a reminder that you never know what can happen at any time in your life and to be thankful for what you have.  We may not always know what our future holds and should take life one step at a time, but always.....keep the faith.